Lets pretend to be in love. Shall we?

"You want a love that consumes you. You want passion, and adventure, and even a little danger"

- Damon Salvatore 

Oh Damon! You stole the words right out of my mouth.

( This is gonna be a post where i'll blabber about love and other mushy stuff. If you're going to judge me then please don't continue on reading. This is my blog and i'll write whatever i want to write. Instead of spoiling the moment by being all no-fun and judgmental, Save your time and watch a video on Youtube  or go and read a book. Just stop reading this blog. Thanks! )

I do understand that i'm a tad too young to talk about love. In my other posts I've consistently written about obsessing over a certain guy but I've never really talked about being in love. I guess it's because I've never really been in love.

A few months ago, I used to tell myself that I'll never get into a relationship unless it's crazy, passionate, consuming love. But then i wonder "is there such thing as average, mediocre love?" I don't think so.

In my opinion, Love is absolute, there's no such thing as degrees of love, measurements or loving someone halfway. It's either you love them or you don't but of course, i might be wrong. This is merely just an opinion. Obviously, i'm not talking from experience.

Maybe this is the reason why i never considered being in a relationship. Probably because i expect too much. I have this idealistic view of how falling in love should feel and no matter how much i force myself, I just don't want to settle for less. Don't blame me. Blame the books that I've read. They describe love in such a beautiful way yet as reality comes, what i feel is far from how i thought i would. It's a bit disappointing which is why I choose to believe that everything i feel right now is merely just an infatuation. Nothing more because i don't think i could accept the fact that this is all that there is to love.

You see, I want a love that consumes me..

a love that squeezes my heart into a rope corset..

one that leaves me dizzy and weak and staggering blindly from the crash..

But i'm not expecting one soon. I'm young, Too young. This is not the right time. Maybe someday.. Just not now. 

Now, enough with all this love stuff. Its 12:24am. We have a graded recitation later, I just started reading my handouts. Only a few more hours left. I hate having to memorize so many information in such little time. -__- Wish me luck! ;)