I choose to be happy

A few months ago, If you'd ask my sister to describe me in one word, she would probably have a hard time choosing between "crazy" and "pessimistic". 

No, i wouldn't be elaborating on the "crazy" part but what i wanted to point out was the fact that i used to be a pessimist. Most of the time, i would focus on the dark side of life, I never saw the beauty that it had to offer.But now, I can proudly say that i'm no longer a negative thinker yet i can't deny the fact that there are still certain days where negativity creeps into my mind, filling it with bad thoughts like a slow poison gradually killing the positivity in me. The past few days have been one of those days.

If you'd ask me how many times I've cried the past 10 days, i probably wouldn't be able to answer you correctly since i'm not very good with numbers and i can't count that high. I know that you might say that this just me being theatrically emotional again. however, This time i'm genuinely hurt. 

But Today, I choose stop myself from being gloomy and sad.

I choose to look at the positive side of things. 

I choose to resist worrisome thoughts and transform my internal critic into more of a cheering squad because to be honest,  i'd rather go around vomiting sunshine than be occupied with worry-filled thoughts. 

From now on, I choose to be happy.